Tuesday, July 25, 2006

im bored....

Ahhh...tuesday..hehe I just came back from Penang on Sunday..spend three days two nights at Gurney Hotel relaxing enjoying the view from the hotel room...beautiful!! and since we are talking about Penang so the food must not be excluded..I just keep eating and eating ahhhhh~~!! fun fun fun =p
I chatted with my old school friends online...i realized I miss them a lot..im so happy that this thursday we are coming out for a drink! Im going to meet up with friends that i haven't see for almost 3 years..friends that i take for granted where i thought they will always be there.. =) now i missed them so much.. im just so excited about it and lingwei is also joining us...yay! That girl damn 'susah' can ask her out...her schedule damn packed! =p so this thursday is sooo going to be fun!!! =)

Monday, July 10, 2006

Craps......

I was late..im supposed to blog yesterday..went to check out the last place in my mind...this time is the very adorable Kenny's turn to drive with Amelia sitting next to him..hehe i felt like im their kid and they were my parents accompanying me..xp Kenny and Amelia..you guys are the best..i never expected both of you to fetched me to the PTPTN bulding..and ended up very 'cha tou' by the Shell HQ building.. =p i apreciated alot what you guys did for me..we did ejoyed the day and Amelia did get a top from MNG =)
so sorry amelia i had to 'fong fei kei' yesterday..mum don't really want me to go out =) but i don't regret..coz get to see the final with the tv a few feet away from me only...! =p
i took the day to think of my options...most probably i'll go for UEL..like what my dear friend said..follow where my heart leads..and my instinct which i believe is rarely wrong =p...of course hopefully i'll get a full loan from PTPTN..that's really important so that i won't burden my parents too much..at least i can pay back the loan myself when i come out working..but if there's no full loan or anything i'll still have my last resort which im reluctant to use..so dear God i hope You hear me from up there..i pray to You =)..well the only thing left to do after applying was to mentally lecture myself about my past mistakes..this is like a second chance for me..cannot blow it off! xp GO GO GO gal*myself*!!
hehe...the World Cup ended..ITALY WON!!! but actually after watching the game i don't really mind which team win..both team played very well..but i just don't understand what the f*** was Master Zizou thinking man??!! what did the italian player said that could have brought out this other side of Mr.Zinedine Zidane? i thought he's supposed to be a player with a class of his own...my dad and i was so shocked to the extend where both of us had our mouth open gagging for so long that if we can see ourselves,we must've looked damn funny!! before Mr.Zidane was sent out,he showed us the beauty of the game..he played so well that i think if without him..the match wouldn't have last till penalty shoot-out..well thats what i thought..but other french player was very good too..Mr.Henry was really a genius in football like what i heard..too bad he can't last longer though..hehe i'll forgive them for kicking out Brazil..the way the french and italian played proved that they soooo deserve to be at final =) instead of the so arrogant-thought-to-be-full-of-hope brazil =p
the italians was very good too..but i thought they were a bit behind at the 2nd half..although i really enjoyed seeing fabio cannavarro defend..he's good..they played with a vengeance..i like that..heheh but they are italians..they'll still look so sexy even if they lose the game..muahahahaha!i just realised yesterday that buffon's eye was so girlie..beautiful i must say..pirlo's hair was like he's doin a 90minutes full of syampoo commercial..damn jealous of him!! totti looked so boyish when he laugh..erm..who else ah..plenty but i just dunno how to spell or pronounce their name..overall they were fun to watch except the part where pirlo hugged fabio from behind looking at the penalty shoot-out..eeeww!! and zharif said that's the sexiest moment of all..urghhh yuck! they are sexy INDIVIDUALLY BUT NOT TOGETHER!!!! =p i talked too much about their sexiness....sound like im obsessed with them hehehe..better stop! =)
but the frenchmen and the italians did gave us a very memorable World Cup final..!! hope to see some of them at 2010!! and those germans too..bastian..lucas..hopefully klose and the rest!! im just soooo greedy..hehehemuahahahahah!!! xp

Thursday, July 6, 2006

what's life.....?

2.40am 7th july-- in my entire 20years of being a homo sapien..i never question or bothered with the questions like what is life?..what is the purpose of life? even when some of my friends always ask..i don't really feel the need to look for answer or answer my friends..i just get on with my life ..living it like how i think i should..living it the way it makes me happy..i was alright with this arrangement..until im older..all the decisions about life,future,happiness..decisions involving people you love,affecting people you love..so many things to consider..i hated it but then i know it's 1 of the stages of life that i must go through..i thought i was mature enough to handle some of the decisions..rational enough to face it but then i was wrong...why must it always look easier..said easier than done? i realised learning from experiences and examples is very important..it help a lot but again...it is sooooo not easy to be done..some people can just act on their impulses and decide once and for all..but im not that kind of person..im a Taurus for goodness sake..i don't like risk!! (and yes sometimes i do believe in the zodiac sign thingy..only sometimes whenit's kinda true) i like to make sure of things...i don't like too risky-life altering things..maybe some surprises but not all the time in my life..but i guess im stuck with this things for some time to come..so now my definition of life or purpose of life = it's all decision making..taking up challenges..fittest survive..like animals living in the jungle?i guess..losers get lost and find other habitate..=p *sigh* *crap crap crap*
yesterday thursday was a very busy day...amelia drive me around to do my college hunting..i love her so much for that..have to jam and round for so long just to find parking at the what they call colleges complex..pity amelia also had to walked far with her sandals...so sorry gal but always rest asure that the things you've done for me to day is something that i will never forget..it'll remind me what a true priceless friend you are..really really glad that i have you as my friend...love you so much gal!! =) (not the lesbo way 'k)
well we checked out almost all the uni at PJ..and Subang..prices range from RM40 000++to RM60 000++..if i get a full loan i also won't be able to survive...feeling damn sad when i came home...talk to mom and dad..feeling myself so useless..thank god after the discussion they went off jogging..so i have time for myself and wallow in self pity..crying my eyes out..it's actually a kind of therapy for me cause i feel much better after that..then i started calling friends in universities colleges..asking information and my sweet angel was really nice..we chatted in the phone and he gave me all the info that i wanted..really make my day! at least i know i still have hope..=/ but the info make me think much harder and longer..and i have to take a lot of things into consideration..more headache but it's still hope.. =)
amelia and alex made my thursday busy,bright and hopeful...Jane,an old friend of mind ever since i was young before i enter primary school..known her for more than 10 years..separated when i shifted to kepong and she stayed at subang..our moms are best friends..they keep in touch all this while but i only get news about my dear friend from her mom..both of us busy with our life..making new friends,enjoying school life..and keeping each other's presence in the mind but never take steps or find a way to meet up..i blame it we were just too busy with our lives =p ...but recently when i found out she's going to australia to further her studies..i suddenly felt like i must meet up with her and re-mend or re-connect our long lost and strained friendship...so my family and i went to her house chit-chat for quite some time..i realised we could still chat so friendly like we never got separated before...it's good..really glad to know our friendship is still sailing...=) after she went to australia..i chat with her through MSN..told her how i was doing and she the same..she knew about my case..she helped me a lot..then today as in an hour ago we were chatting and again she helped me in my 'colleges fee and programmes research project' =p really brighten my day eventhough it's still so early and dark in the morning..i have another option to consider now..have to go check it out first though..better be safe than sorry..especially in my case where i couldn't afford to be sorry!!!
i always take a long time to blog...next time must try to type faster...=p hmmm..i should have gone with amy clubbing but later she told me she was just hanging out,chilling at a pub..still a few shots of alcohol should at least help me relax..but then again i have no mood to go out either..=p gtg sleep now or i won't stop crapping...!tata..night night!!

Wednesday, July 5, 2006

italy's turn now..

aih..when germany lost to italy ..im supposed to feel very sad because i was supporting germany but the tears just won't come..that means im not as sad as i thought i was..italy does deserved to win the game..it was very obvious they played better football than the germans...aih..i just felt that 1 goal was enough..why 2 goals at the last minutes!!!!!! poor germany have to lose so terribly...aih..well according to my list..after germany will be italy ...hehe so now im supporting italy ..hopefully they'll win the world cup..
my mum was so happy cause she supported italy...been telling me for days italy will win the world cup..no no mum is not a football fan either..she just read the paper where somebody said that according to the 12 zodiac year..this year is the DOG year and when every time a world cup was held during the dog year it was either brazil or italy won the cup...so since brazil was knocked out..it was obvious to my mum that italy will win this year's cup... cute rite..that's my mum's theory for supporting italy.. =p
my aunt called and told me she bought some tops for me from london..she also told me that if she cant book any rooms she might just cancel the plan...aih..please la all those middle eastern tourists..leave some rooms for my aunt can or not!! i want to see my cousins so much! =) esspecially the very naughty Rex =)
checking on my mood...seems fine except for the germany hearbreak..i feel fine...getting back to the normal chenn chenn soon..but this time i have to be someone better..been doing a lot of thinking..must act on what i've decided..can't just talk and no action right.. =)
that's all for today..there's nothing much to write after the germany vs italy game..i don't mind who win in the france vs portugal game..im supporting italy now! =p

Tuesday, July 4, 2006

germany must win!

1.27am- Waiting for the match to begin..have nothing to do so i blog..suppose to wait for my aunt's call from London but really bored so i go online..hehe she won't be able to get through now..sorry 'yee yee'..yes im using dial up STILL that's why..the line is also very slow =(
well nevermind..let's talk about last friday..I went to Sri Hartamas..together with the guys..we reach there almost or after 12 i guess..not really sure ..hehe 1st time went there at night ..and omigod so many damn cars and people there..i mean i know sri hartamas is a happening place but the 'level' of happening on the friday night can still surprised me..i know it's a game night..but still..i really feel like a 'kampung gal' =p we spend half an hour searching for parking..3 cars altogether..and we had to watch the argentines scored their goal from the car..if the car can just stop there we can actually watch the match in the middle of the road..that's because you can find a tv in every corner of the place!!anyway we found parking space then we went to this place to play foosball(not sure bout the spelling)..i took up a place where i can see the match going on when u looked up..8 of us playing foosball...my 1st time playing foosball also..fun!choy and voon bet on the the 2 teams to draw..finally they did draw but in the penalty shoot..i bet with choy that 'my' germany will win!! hehe guess everyone know who win the bet right..!GERMANY ALL THE WAY!
to make myself clear.. im not exactly a dieheart football fan..i just support the team with good looking players or the way the players play..so at the beginning my favourites ARE Brazil(for their samba kick and KAKA!n i personally think Ronaldhino is also kinda cute in a way),England(dun need to explain rite),Germany(ballack,klose,bastian,ehem michael schumacher is german =p),italy(full of sexy mature guys =p),portugal(christiano ronaldo d cry baby)...so as all of you can see..i support them accordingly..that means after my top 2 favourite team lost..next team is germany..so my friends.. please don't question me anymore! =)
back to hartamas..after foosball and the game..we went for a drink while waiting for all the cars to clear off which took about 1hour..we sat there for so long and the road was still full of cars..jie and mun went home first and i had to sit with the rest until half time of the italy vs ukraine match..i reached home at 4am!! tiring but had fun though..my favourite team won..get to spend time with friends who are going off to their respective uni..=)
one more thing...i must whine and moan about....MY BRASIL AND ENGLAND LOST ALREADY!!! i've been mourning since the night..=(
may kheng jie called me on monday..she comes back for 2 weeks..after talking to her and some of my aunties and my parents..im more clear on what i want to do..and im feeling much better that the last few weeks..hate all those feeling insecure thingy..make me feel so weak and helpless
anyway the germany vs italy game is starting..and my aunt is going to call and.... TOTTI almost scored!!! thank god for LEHMANN...erm feels like a live commentator now...gtg !!!! GERMANY ALL THE WAY!! sorry sexy italianos...you guys are still going to be sexy even if you lose...muahahahaha!!=)
p.s. im sitting right in front of the tv now..ahh...love my notebook...muachxx!