true true...

THank you Amy and Kenny for your comments ....

I agree.. if the change is turning into something which would affect how we feel or our friendship or any relationship then I should say something to let them know...but Amy knows me from so long ago...I won't say anything yet till I really cannot 'tahan' anymore...ahahhaha...rite Amy?
But ofcoz whatever happened is not really big deal...i would categorised it as a minor problem but just felt like blogging about it the other day...

Well it is a good thing to blog...i can get things out of me and feel better..now I know why the three of you like to blog so much...hahahha..but I am still feeling lazy..

The talk about changes...it's actually a very wide topic...and I guess at the age of 21 and i still did not see anything or feel anything about my life yet kinda prompted me to think and think and think, think,think andddddd think....then again meeting up with old school friends also triggered me...
Maybe I am too naive or something...i expected to see the same old people with the same old way and thinking but I remembered so many things happened in the time we did not meet up that these things changed them to be a different person...

I admit that it was difficult to have the same wavelength with those friends during times in school...hence i always found myself at the outskirt of the circle...not only one circle but a few circle...always gather together in a group yet i felt like im the outsider which I am even till now..it's the same for them too when they are with me and Amy, Py and Sy. They know and I know yet we can still be friends, remember each other's birthdays and the concern for each other is there..moreover I can actually read one of them so clearly and understand what she was going through which made me angry of those people who treated her that way ...Im angry with her also for being in denial...hahah she knows and we are going to discuss more on this...

My point is that i realised changes made us become a better person ...ok could be turn into worse person also but once changes happened, there is nothing to be done...it's like a phase that we have to go through..and learn it: ourselves and the people around us...that would be the first step to tackle the matter..

Changes because of the surroundings or experiences...yes true..agree..but i wouldnt say it's the duty of friends to ACCEPT it but a duty of friends to UNDERSTAND it is much better phrase...I believe not all changes could be agreed and acceptable for some friends..but even if they couldn't accept it..they MUST understand it and it would be better if there is understanding from both sides: the changed and the friends or loved ones...Understanding...and tolerance of course...but not make it a must to accept it because if one is unhappy of the changes and tell the other one of it and what if the other one stubbornly believe he/she is on the right side?...it will lead to huge arguments or more..and it will be like one party always giving in to the changed party and then more issues arises....complicating things even more...hahah so i guess for me I would prefer both party to actually listen to each other's opinion and understand the whole situation before accepting or not accepting...and always be rational and control the temper...! Really listen to the expert here...i always lose out on my temper and get into arguments..if i only could just control the fire..*sigh*...Im trying...=p

Listening is important...I believed I kinda do this often with Amelia, PY and SY...take all out and put in on the table then we pick the pieces and put it together...I hear you ..you hear me..then explain what we think...good way to solve things among us...but I do not wish to do that often because that would meant that we always have problems...! =) of course problems couldn't be avoided also as we are all girls..more thinking here and there...Im not saying guys do not think but really..the way girls think can be very complicated....even sometimes i don't understand myself Xp

Agree and true again that the core character of our loved ones is buried deep down somewhere eventhough changes happened because I believe the changes is actually some sort of defences against the surrounding, a mask to protect ourselves...that is why we have to understand the reasons of the changes occured...and always remember the true character of us inside...the one that first captured people and friends hearts...
Sometimes you won't know if you change or what but friends and loved ones could tell...and they are the best person you would wanna hear it from because you trust them more...yes..i wouldn't wanan hear it from any other people also...

Hmmm my main reason was to post a FEW LINES to reply Amy and Kenny but ended up typing more because things just came into my mind when i type...ahahah
Overall, main points...no judging a person just like that and no one is going to be 'forced' to accept changes of another person but to UNDERSTAND...yup...UNDERSTANDING!!
always try to stay true to yourself even though we have gone through changes..uh huh what else...oh change...a lot of the word 'change' in this post hehehe...then there's this denial case which i would blog about later when i get a better understanding of it...because im still quite unhappy how it affected one of my friends...

Summer holiday... friends are coming back and i've already starting to meet up with some of them...i also remember summer holidays is the time where i will have my emotional turmoil session thingy...ahahah because too much time to spend and too many friends to meet and too many things to think of... X-)

Anyway will update more..and Amy and Kenny don't stop commenting ya!! Quick quick finish exam!!! Wan go yamcha with you all la...and tell you bout me working!! okok good luck in your exam...!

a very fruitful Saturday...

ok....The main reason to watch Ocean's 13 is because of BRAD PITT!! I sooooo love him....he is soooo hot...he even looks hot in a security uniform...PY and I were almost drooling...well I was almost drooling and not so sure about PY...George Clooney is hot too...i find them very very sexy...ahhhh..

I had a great time today even it was just a movie and nothing much...before movie i went breakfast with this really 'long time no see' friend because he was studying in Singapore. We chit-chat for 2 hours about almost everything...he told me of his opinions in some issues and i told him mine...i really enjoy this kinda conversation where it make us ponder and feel mature....(feel mature - because im not sure am i that mature) I envy his experiences living in a foreign country even it is just across the causeway. He saw so many and get to know so many people from different background and mindset then he comes back and started comparing and realising things..then i was wondering finally he sees it because some time back I saw the issue but I did not think much about it until some friends started discussing about it...ahah he also helps a lot about some stuff...I think it is time I am to do something about it. It is a must...I cannot continue envying other people and not do something about it. Thanks man for the advice!!

I went 'yamcha' with PY yesterday night after so long..had a great night chatting...then today went to watch Ocean's 13...ahahah i got PY hook to them already..she wants to watch 11 and 12...really an enjoyable movie...feel really good..pity some people don't get it and ended up falling asleep while watching it...really..aren't they supposed to TRY to understand the movie since they paid RM10 for it?What a waste! I wanna buy the DVDs of the 3 movies...

I realised im a better listener than a speaker...and it is a good thing for we learn more by listening..feeling a bit edgy I do not know why..i can feel the 'it's-time-to-grow-up-dear-kinda feeling' resurfacing..lot's of things thought of but no action taken..I need to start moving

*sigh*...being in the middle of two different perspective can do that to you too. Then from my own point of view...i agree with both sides in some things...i can't describe the things I wanted to say...ahhaha i think this must be one reason why i seldom blog...Im not good with words...

People changes as time goes by...but when the person you think you know very well actually act in a way you never expected of or you know of it but never really give it a thought of kinda thing happened..make me start thinking again..Is this really you? Or am I being too sensitive again? I want to say...people are selfish...i know because I am too...but if we put ourselves in the other person shoes...we see things their way...we just need to learn to start doing that...it will help us to analyse an issue properly because I believe both sides are in the wrong too and not just blame it all on one side...or is it because the person has changed that they do something to make you feel that way? Different up-bringing really makes a lot of differences...that is the only thing i can think of for now...

Are friends really important...? I will answer yes...VERY MUCH.. without them I won't be me today...I went through a lot with my friends...close or not close, best or not best...i went through good and bad moments with them that i still remember till now and take it as a reminder of what to do or expect in the future...they also made me a better person one way or another..i would love to do that for them also...i wonder may i?

I can't believe i can type so long...and reading it now i feel i just crapped a lot...but again i say i need to improve and encourage myself to express my feelings using words..so i am trying here...
Well i guess that's all for now...

kids!!! omigod!!!

I can't believe my first time blogging here will be about kids...
They are very very 'unique' creatures...
They either make you become so lovingly and affectionate or they make you go CRAZY because of small little matter...
So what if she's the only daughter and the mother pamper her all the way? I am the only daughter in the family also...i do not care that there's an age gap of 15 years between us!! I just cannot stand her anymore!!
How on earth in one minute time she can actually make me go through so many emotions?....i was upset , angry because of her stubborness...and her attitude as if she owns the whole house!!! She f****ing took my favourite pillow yesterday and said her granny likes it so give her...i have plenty of other pillows in my room but nooooo...she wanted my FAVOURITE pillow!! I like to sleep hugging that pillow together with my big bolster and small bolster!!! .........and tonight i have to give up my pillow again....

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And she just made me stand up and took my chair!! I have to type while kneeling!!! i am not going to get a new chair...she has to learn to give me back!!!!!

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Got my chair back...and now she make me like her....im so conflicted la!!

When people go work they always look forward to go home after work....but i dreaded it yesterday and today....if she wasn't my uncle's daughter....just IF...she soooo going to get out of my house!!!

I cannot even believe that I typed all those about a kid...i love kid.....me Chenn Chenn loves kids...if i can stand working in a day care centre for 6 months without commiting murder why can't i stand THIS kid here!!!!????

OMG...i was being so sarcastic at her just now!! Noooooooooooo~~~!!! I cannot be like this...help me!!! I am sooo mean!!! Nooooooo...she is only 6 years old!!! Nooooooooo! but she damn naughty....she changes her face in a second time... from sunny sunshine to dark cloudy storm!!!
She's rude and loud and...and....Im going to sleep and leave her here alone....

There goes my first blog here....ciao!